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Home

Came home last evening. Extremely intense experience. Finally got to my place on the couch and was just overwhelmed with emotion. It took me a few minutes to finally say to Christy, “Here I am, back here, after all these days and all this work, and I feel exactly the same as when I left.”Continue reading “Home”

You’re Still Here

Words to a song I wrote when home sick with MS for a few weeks in the late 90’s. A much more “Christian” song than the next one I wrote about the disease a few years later. Still, some good thoughts perhaps. YOU’RE STILL HERE Seems those worship songs of yesterday Rarely moved my heartContinue reading “You’re Still Here”

Responses to a young buck

When I first entered the hospital I received an email from a young “buck” who loves God and is trying to decide the particular context in which he wants to serve God with his life. He has given me permission to print that exchange, and then I include some reflections. Young Buck Hey Mr Flowers,Continue reading “Responses to a young buck”

Body image, vulnerability, and shame

Most fun I’ve ever had showering in front of a woman half my age: none. Awkward experience, but Mary Beth was a pro. I got my A in self-care. I was like “Seriously? You’re going to stand here while I shower? So you want the full monty?” Funny how the body connects to the soul.Continue reading “Body image, vulnerability, and shame”

Going home

Back to going home tomorrow. They were going to discharge me Wednesday morning at 10, without any PT or OT that day. What’s the point of just staying one more night? Christy is picking me up after work tomorrow evening, so tomorrow is my last day of PT/OT and I’m out of here. My feet areContinue reading “Going home”

Keeping your shoes on

Imagine if you could never kick off your shoes, if your feet just constantly felt that constriction of having tight shoes on. I can sit here right now in my stocking feet or even with shoes and socks completely off, and my feet feel as if they’ve been stuffed in tight workbooks all day. NoContinue reading “Keeping your shoes on”

The Roller Coaster

Quite the roller coaster it has been here. I am going home on Tuesday, and so far have experienced only very minor recovery. My left foot is still completely numb up to the knee. My right foot is less numb and it’s just to the ankle. The left lateral side of my left leg isContinue reading “The Roller Coaster”

The accuser

One of the first things we have to do when we dip into a depression or funk or mood is determine what is the right response. For me is it always a combination of quietness, reflection, and writing about it. I’m not seeking encouragement from anyone, I am writing only because the writing helps meContinue reading “The accuser”

Letter to my church family

What follows is an update I just posted on my church’s Facebook page, to my church family. I was thinking of them when I wrote it, but I know this blog is read by many dear friends who care deeply for me and my family, so if you’re one of those people, this is forContinue reading “Letter to my church family”

Indiana teacher wants straight prom because LGBT people have no ‘purpose’

More from the “We call ourselves Christians but really we’re just huge jerks and this is how we justify it” department… I’m so embarrassed. [repostus hash=962d954d7a0f003154ca95f43e88c8ac title=Indiana+teacher+wants+straight+prom+because+LGBT+people+have+no+%26%238216%3Bpurpose%26%238217%3B host=Raw+Story+ short=1zDsf snip=A+special+education+teacher+from+Sullivan%2C+Indiana+is+joining+a+group+of+students%2C+parents+and+other+Christians+in+the+community+who+are+calling+for+a+prom+that+bans+LGBT+people+because+she+says+they+have+no+%E2%80%9Cpurpose+in+life.%E2%80%9D+WTWO-TV+reported+that+the+group+met+at+Sullivan+First+Christian+Church%26hellip%3B thumb=4281955 jump=5]